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Sometimes... I find myself really angry at the world. Really really angry. I want to be alone and away from everyone and everything.  I destroy stuff, clear out my computer instead of taking it out on others. The final step is clearing out my room (which I did today). After 6 hrs of cleaning and filling 2 garbage bags of junk plus another huge pile of stuff to recycle... I cooled down and returned to my normal rhythm and state of lowness.

  

I thought I would post a list someone else made for me. 

Things I should remember when I am down:

• Friends
  
• Job
  
• Family
  
• Being back in school
  
• Love of others
  
• Being grounded and living in the present
  
• Positive choices
  
• Achievements
  

It's sitting on my iPod so I can look back at it at times like these. Everyone should carry around a list like this. On a little card or something to remind us why the hell we are here and something to remind us where we are going. 

On a side note - I found another note that made me laugh

"Do not feed the rubber ducks"

I can't remember when I wrote it down but I have the perfect image to go with it.

Why? Because they will grow super huge!

And some dark ducky humor:

Your last bath -