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Todays Feelings:

A hug would be nice

It's looking rainy outside

Cancer Hamster is going to need a hamster sized coffin soon

I'm unraveling inside

I really can't...

I wish I was this bunny. 

A list of why

Sometimes you can try to explain something 101 ways but in the end it still will not register. People ask but do not listen (especially when it means a lot). Why explain...

-Why Explain

-Why Desire 

-Why seek Approval

-Why Search for understanding

-Why Love 

-Why Bother

-Why Try

-Why Breath

-Why Live

-Why EXIST.

WHY?

Coke - We all know its bad but...

(Quoted from a site)

Have you ever wondered why Coke comes with a smile? It’s because it gets you high. They took the cocaine out almost a hundred years ago. You know why? It was redundant.

• In The First 10 minutes: 10 teaspoons of sugar hit your system. (100% of your recommended daily intake.) You don’t immediately vomit from the overwhelming sweetness because phosphoric acid cuts the flavor allowing you to keep it down.
• 20 minutes: Your blood sugar spikes, causing an insulin burst. Your liver responds to this by turning any sugar it can get its hands on into fat. (There’s plenty of that at this particular moment)
• 40 minutes: Caffeine absorption is complete. Your pupils dilate, your blood pressure rises, as a response your livers dumps more sugar into your bloodstream. The adenosine receptors in your brain are now blocked preventing drowsiness.
• 45 minutes: Your body ups your dopamine production stimulating the pleasure centers of your brain. This is physically the same way heroin works, by the way.
• >60 minutes: The phosphoric acid binds calcium, magnesium and zinc in your lower intestine, providing a further boost in metabolism. This is compounded by high doses of sugar and artificial sweeteners also increasing the urinary excretion of calcium.
• >60 Minutes: The caffeine’s diuretic properties come into play. (It makes you have to pee.) It is now assured that you’ll evacuate the bonded calcium, magnesium and zinc that was headed to your bones as well as sodium, electrolyte and water.
• >60 minutes: As the rave inside of you dies down you’ll start to have a sugar crash. You may become irritable and/or sluggish. You’ve also now, literally, pissed away all the water that was in the Coke. But not before infusing it with valuable nutrients your body could have used for things like even having the ability to hydrate your system or build strong bones and teeth.

This will all be followed by a caffeine crash in the next few hours. (As little as two if you’re a smoker.) But, hey, have another Coke, it’ll make you feel better.

*FYI: Coke itself is not the enemy, here. It’s the dynamic combo of massive sugar doses combined with caffeine and phosphoric acid. Things which are found in almost all soda.

Nothing.

A list of nothing.

1. Nothing
2. NOthing
3. NOThing
4. NOTHing
5. NOTHIng
6. NOTHINg
7. NOTHING

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It looses meaning after a while, and becomes... nothing.

The Good, The Bad and The Ugly

Random

The Good:

1. Friends that make me laugh
2. Love
3. Work - Might not pay much these days but I love it no matter what

The Bad:

1. Depression
2. Being very tired 
3. Being overwhelmed
4. Lack of clarity of thoughts
5. The desire of being alone - which is right now impossible. 

The Ugly

1. Having mixed feelings about someone - to be in a relationship or not?
2. Lots of unvented emotions
3. Anger
4. The lack of sun outside today

Famous List

I have yet to find a list that is famous. It's a lot harder then it seems or maybe I'm just over-thinking it. 

Definition of a list: 

a series of names or other items written or printed together in a meaningful grouping or sequence so as to constitute a record: a list of members. I asked a friend to help me think of a famous list and the answer I got was: "I wonder if any famous people made lists... like President Lincoln... 1.Get tickets for the theatre... 2. Wash tall hat 3. Trim beard" 4. Photoshoot for Penny gig" That is my favorite made up list yet!

Growing Up - Everything will be ok

Random thoughts about knowing your growing up:

1. Change is welcome
2. You know that sometimes parting with things is for the better no matter how hard it seems even if it means crying a bit to move on
3. You start looking at a different type of underwear to wear (Just Kidding! I'm not at that age quite yet)
   
4. Working all the time seems to be the norm suddenly
   
5. Your priorities may still be the same but they suddenly are expanded into mini points and are well developed 
   
6. A place of your own is a MUST and not just a WANT
   
7. There no longer is time to just randomly hang out at the mall while not buying stuff
   
8. There is actually money to buy stuff at the mall with! (umm well lets not glorify that - sometimes there is money)
   
9. There is a huge desire for things to have lots of meaning
10. Being nervous about something is a positive thing and is actually something that can be used to your advantage

SJ